Birthday Card from God

Meet babies-to-be Rufus and Reefus, who officially have heartbeats. We saw the hearts beating like two fluttering hummingbirds two days before my birthday. Happy birthday, indeed.

I flew to Nashville on my birthday last Friday to cover the Stellar Awards, something like the Oscars of gospel music, for work. Months ago when I arranged the trip, I was only thinking of the fun of celebrating 35 years of life — not adjusting to carrying new life along with me. The Mr. was a very helpful travel companion, but still I was exhausted and couldn’t throw myself into all of the unoffical Stellar-related activites I’d hoped to attend.

But while resting and missing a free ASCAP breakfast Saturday morning, I started praying quietly then not at all. That’s when the words of this birthday card from God came to mind.

“As insignificant as you’ve felt in your short life, I’ve always seen you. As much as you’ve prayed — sometimes more than others — I’ve always heard you. As much as I’ve done to get to this point in your life, in some cases, I let you rest on your own laurels as if it was all you. We both know that you were aware of that fact more times than you’d say aloud.

That’s why you brought your conception struggles to me in the first place, even though you armed yourself with science. Though you believed that perhaps such a blessing was only for others who lived a less “colorful” life, this blessing was always yours — yours and your husband’s.

So what you saw yesterday on the ultrasound screen is what you asked for, and because I really am able to do things that exceed abundantly above all you ask or think, including your prayer for a child, I answered as specifically as your heart desired.

You wanted twins; you got twins. Happy birthday.”

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5 thoughts on “Birthday Card from God

  1. Hello, as a semi-long reader of your blog and a fellow ‘Black woman born Brown battling infertility’ I want to thank you for your blog, and for your honesty. There are not a lot of blogs out there that are written by black women dealing with fertility issues so when I found your blog I was very happy. Now with the news of you double blessing I am overjoyed for you and will pray for everyday that this pregnancy is a safe and uneventful one.

    Peace and blessings to you on the rest of your journey!

  2. I just KNEW it! Felt it in my bones! Girl you get plenty of rest and hydrate, hydrate, hydrate! I don’t know why except for my sister is a sort of pregnancy coach and I hear her saying that to all the women in “the family way.”

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